So after yesterday’s blog entry I did a few things around the apartment… after finishing my book. Just the little things that had been piling up because neither of us really wanted to deal with it. Well, that’s my reasoning behind it, I’m not sure what his was. But anyway, things got done. The garbage […]
I know its been almost a week since my last post. I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress and things in my personal life and I’ve been trying to work myself though them. It’s like my depression has gotten really bad for the past week and a half. I’m super low motivated and low […]
Last night I went to my General Anxiety Disorder class, aka GAD. I had missed it last week because of working graveyards and I was afraid I wouldn’t make it back in time before work. But anyway, this week we talked about and worked on doing thought records. There are 7 different steps. You write […]
So last night I started obsessing when I crawled into bed. Not the best thing while wanting to go to sleep. I started obsessing over Feast Of Mars and the prize table. Feast of Mars is an amtgard event held in October every year. We do Gladiator style fighting on Saturday usually. But this year […]
So remember that container I got to hold all my yarn,and how I couldn’t get it to fit under the bed? Well it found a nice new home in my closet. Not the best spot, but it’s out of the way and everything is contained. All I have to do is remove my Galls bag to […]
Yesterday was really difficult. I felt that I was struggling the whole day against everything. What little self-confidence I did have suddenly plummeted. I hated the fat person staring back at me in the mirror in the clothes that wouldn’t fit properly. I felt that I was just spinning my wheels and not going anywhere. […]
My mind is a raging torrent, flooded with rivulets of thought cascading into a waterfall of creative alternatives. No. No its not. Its blank. I just wanted to say something smart and catchy. Thank you Blazing Saddles. I’m not really sure on what to talk about. I’ve been up for an hour. My mind isn’t […]
Sometimes friends and friendships suck. Especially when you basically become a ‘scheduled friendship’. And I don’t mean trying to hang out with someone. I mean being only able to talk to someone on certain days. I have a friend who I can only talk to now like 2 days a week because his girlfriend doesn’t […]
Equine Mistress of the Dark 