So today is Monday, the last day of my security job for the week. I made it into work again, which is good for me. It was still a lot of self talk of “I can do this”,  and “it’s only six hours.” I had a plan to pack a bag of workout clothes so […]

So, through all my anxiety, fear, and little bit of panic I made it into work. So that’s a plus for me. Besides taking medicine it was a lot of “I can do this”  and “you can do it” from my boyfriend. He said that I need to install a little Rob Snider into me […]

Happy Saturday people. I woke up feeling upset and super anxious about coming to work today. Like I almost had a panic attack over it kind of anxious. But I took my anxiety medicine and kept on telling myself “I can do this.” So there I was at work, writing out my rough draft out […]

Hey everybody. Happy Friday!  I was meant to work my security job today, but I didn’t. I called out sick. I woke up feeling super anxious and with a lot of head pressure/pain. Meds that make me fuzzy and sometimes knock me out were required to get out of bed.   I didn’t make it […]

Hey everyone, I hope that you are having a good day. Mine has been okay. My boyfriend left at the buttcrack of dawn to take the King of Westmarch to the airport so that he could go and visit the land in Hawaii. Oh, how the king suffers. Or, to quote Mel Brooks “It’s good […]

Hey everyone, happy Wednesday. So today is my one day off this week, between the horses and the security job. So I slept in a little bit, not as long as I would  have liked to, but at least I slept after my boyfriend left which hasn’t happened it a while. I woke up because […]

Hey everyone, happy Tuesday! So since its Tuesday I worked with horses today. I got there kind of early, 9 am, which is kind of becoming my norm. I can’t seem to sleep after my boyfriend leaves for work. Maybe that is the time to fit a workout in. Hrm… I’ll have to try it […]

Happy Monday and Labor day. If you had the day off I hope that you enjoyed it. If you were like me and I had to work it, I hope it was a chill/easy day for you. I’m trying to get back in the habit of writing something everyday. It feels like it takes the […]

So I know that yesterday I said I was doing better about not caring about people not stopping for me at my little booth. Well, apparently, I today I do care. People just don’t even seem to slow down for me, just zoom on by. The residents are the worst about it took. I can […]

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind, wanting to start again? Sorry for the Katy Perry quote, its just been stuck in my head since I got the idea to start writing this blog entry. And this blog is kind of all over the place, so sorry in advance… But […]