Hey everyone, its Friday. So far its been an okay kind of Friday too. I didn’t have any anxiety when I woke up this morning, which was a nice change. Almost daily I have been waking up riddled with anxiety. I got to work okay. And I was okay there for most of the day. […]

I know that I said I was going to do a blog entry every day this month, and then there I go and not do a blog yesterday. I had no inspiration, nothing really happened, and I was mentally just feeling like I was checked out. Yesterday all I really did was watch more Grey’s […]

I don’t know what is going on with me.  My anxiety level when I wake up is through the roof still. There is a lot of self talk and medicine taking just to leave the apartment.  I love riding horses. I love that I get paid to ride horses. But this morning I wanted nothing […]

So today is Monday, the last day of my security job for the week. I made it into work again, which is good for me. It was still a lot of self talk of “I can do this”,  and “it’s only six hours.” I had a plan to pack a bag of workout clothes so […]

So, through all my anxiety, fear, and little bit of panic I made it into work. So that’s a plus for me. Besides taking medicine it was a lot of “I can do this”  and “you can do it” from my boyfriend. He said that I need to install a little Rob Snider into me […]

Happy Saturday people. I woke up feeling upset and super anxious about coming to work today. Like I almost had a panic attack over it kind of anxious. But I took my anxiety medicine and kept on telling myself “I can do this.” So there I was at work, writing out my rough draft out […]

Hey everybody. Happy Friday!  I was meant to work my security job today, but I didn’t. I called out sick. I woke up feeling super anxious and with a lot of head pressure/pain. Meds that make me fuzzy and sometimes knock me out were required to get out of bed.   I didn’t make it […]

Hey everyone, I hope that you are having a good day. Mine has been okay. My boyfriend left at the buttcrack of dawn to take the King of Westmarch to the airport so that he could go and visit the land in Hawaii. Oh, how the king suffers. Or, to quote Mel Brooks “It’s good […]

Hey everyone, happy Wednesday. So today is my one day off this week, between the horses and the security job. So I slept in a little bit, not as long as I would  have liked to, but at least I slept after my boyfriend left which hasn’t happened it a while. I woke up because […]

Hey everyone, happy Tuesday! So since its Tuesday I worked with horses today. I got there kind of early, 9 am, which is kind of becoming my norm. I can’t seem to sleep after my boyfriend leaves for work. Maybe that is the time to fit a workout in. Hrm… I’ll have to try it […]