Welcome to week 33!

I slept okay last night, had a hard time getting there but once I did I was fine. I woke up with Fiks around 830 and then I got up and moved to the sofa while he w as making himself breakfast. I turned on Cutthroat Kitchen for a while and fell back to sleep for a while. I woke up around 10 and started making cinnamon rolls, like normal. During this time Fiks was getting ready for amtgard, one of our friends, CJ, is getting his first knights belt, and I’m super excited for him. Its about bloody time.

I delivered the rolls over to my parents and then I came back home and ate mine. Tosh swung by to make sure that Fiks was up and moving, which he was. Fiks then proceeded the grab that camera and leave. I grabbed a basket of dirty laundry and then I went to the garage and Fiks was still in the car. I told him about dinner at my Brother’s house, and to keep me apprised of timing and such for CJ, because I’d like to be there for him. I moved the laundry around and then I came back up and started working on this.

Not too soon after I started getting really bad abdomen pain in my left side. Like, I just stayed on the sofa for hours curled up into a little ball. I know I should have gone to urgent care but I didn’t think I could drive, Fiks was down at the park with everyone watching CJ get knighted, which is where I really wanted to be. Mom and Poppa were over at my Brother’s house and my Sister had gone quilting. I just stayed home and tried to take some Tylenol to help with the pain, it didn’t really help any. I did hot and cold packs, didn’t help any. I couldn’t really eat, everything took a bunch of effort and energy that I didn’t have. I went to make a doctor’s appointment with my normal doctor and I’m going to have to wait until the middle of September.

Fiks went over to my Brother’s house and asked if I wanted him to bring home any dinner. I said no because I didn’t really feel like eating anything. He came home and took a shower, and then we did the garbage and recycling and I went and laid down in bed with my painful side up and just with a sheet over me, and that was uncomfortable. I can’t imagine how it would have been with my 20lbs weighted gravity blanket.

I slept okay. I woke up a few times just because I was in pain and uncomfortable. I woke up with my alarm because I had a doctor’s appointment at 9. I had a little breakfast before the appointment and then I curled up on the sofa and waited for the call. It was right on time. So I talked with that doctor about the increased meds we did and we scheduled another appointment for about 5 weeks out.

Next I went and got dressed and gathered my things to go to the grocery store. But first I went over to my Sister’s house to prove I was alive, just in pain. Then I drove down the mountain to the grocery store and it wasn’t too bad. I listened to the Ralph Report as I walked around getting what we did (and didn’t) need. I got everything loaded into the truck, which took effort, then I made my way home. I called Poppa and asked him to help me carry in the groceries because I was running out of energy. He came and helped me and he offered to go to the doctor with me. I said I needed a rest before we went, so he went back to my Sister’s and I flopped on the sofa for a while and took a little nap.

I woke up and decided to go to the doctor since I was still in pain. I went and got Poppa and off we went. Thankfully the urgent care is just down the street, so not a far drive. I might have walked if I was feeling better. But anyway, I found a good parking spot and then we walked into urgent care. I waited for my turn to get checked in and then we went and sat down. Wasn’t sitting for too long before I was called back.

They took me back and did my vitals and then they asked me questions. They looked at me like I was crazy when I said it’s been off and on for a year, and that no one can find a reason. Then the doctor came in and asked me the same questions, so I gave the same response. She said she was going to go check my records and we’ll go from there. So I waited for 10 minutes and then she returned and recommended that I go to the emergency room. She would let them know I was coming.

I walked out and got Poppa and we went home. I went and packed a bag in case they kept me overnight and I called and talked to Fiks and let him know what was going on. I locked up the house and walked over to my Sister’s house to get Poppa so we could head to the emergency room.

Poppa drove, and we got there in one piece. We walked to the ER and I got checked in. It was a quick initial wait, I think we were only waiting 10 minutes before I was taken into a screening room. They asked what was going on, so I repeated my story. They ordered blood work and a CT. I told the doctor that I couldn’t do the dye unless they gave me pre meds. He said no to the pre meds and so I was doing it without contrast. I got some blood drawn, and another cup for another urine sample. There were some very annoying people in the lobby with us. There was a “Karen” with her Mom, I felt sorry for them at first and then she turned into a royal bitch, so I stopped feeling sorry for them. A loud older man who would raise his hand every time that a name was called so he could jump up the line. An older woman who did all over her phone calls on speaker phone and whatever she was watching on as loud as possible. Another “Karen” who was a total snob and glared at everyone.

Fiks came and joined me after he got off work, so Poppa got to go home. Not too long after they kicked out visitors so only the patients were in the lobby. I started reading for a while. I was waiting for 6 hours before I got called back for my CT scan. Afterwards I was given a bed and I told Fiks where I was. A different doctor came in and talked to me and said that I was going to get some fluids and Tylenol IV while she looked at the CT scan results. Fiks joined me fairly quickly, so that was nice. I had the nicest nurse, D, a very large man. He used my other hand to stick the catheter in for my fluids and Tylenol. And I also got some anti nausea meds since that had been bugging me too.

The doctor came back and said that they found an ovarian cyst but the pain was in the wrong area. I explained that I was very frustrated with the whole thing, and she said she understood it was frustrating for her too. But I’d get to go home. I got released at 130 in the morning, we were home by 2, and I was asleep by 230ish, maybe 3.

I slept like the dead until my alarms went off, then I turned them off. I woke up again an hour or so later and just got up and got into my PJ pants and then I went over to say hi to my Parents. Mom and Poppa were worried about what had happened in the night, and my Sister had left to go to a hotel out of town for the evening. I came home and curled up on the sofa and spent most of the day there. I talked with a couple friends, and Fiks kept checking in on how my pain level was, which was low since I got a bunch of IV Tylenol.

I didn’t really eat today. I did my best to keep the laundry going. Fiks gave the fishes water, which we were all grateful for. I just nibbled throughout the day and drank water. I got hungry when a friend sent me pictures of her dinner which involved pot stickers. That was the most appetizing thing I had seen all day, so I went and made myself some pot stickers for dinner. I ended up burning them, but they still ate. Fiks got hungry and made himself some chicken nuggets for dinner after I ate my burned pot stickers. I turned on YouTube after a while and then I went and took a shower before brushing my teeth and going to bed.

I slept okay last night, I still can’t stand to lie down on my left side for too long. And I wanted to go to work today, I really did, I just didn’t feel well enough to go, so I texted my manager if she wanted me to come in and try for a little while and she told me to stay home. I went over and walked Lumi for my parents after fixing myself an English Muffin for breakfast, and then I came home and passed the fuck out on the sofa with the TV going. I was out until almost 12. I got up and dressed, and that took more effort than originally planned or expected, and then I went over and checked on my Parents. We were talking when the Ring went off on my phone and I looked at my watch and I thought it showed Fiks. So I excused myself and came home, seeing the FedEx truck in the driveway and I got excited and came in to him washing his hands at the sink. Apparently he had a bulk stop not far from home. He wanted to come home and check on me and get some lunch, so that’s what he did. We watched a few YouTube videos for a while before he headed back to work.

I stayed home and curled up and watched some TV, and a couple of movies. I nibbled for dinner and told Fiks to get himself something on the way home. Once he was home we watched some YouTube videos before I took a shower and brushed my teeth before bed.

I had a hard time sleeping last night, but I think it was because I slept so much the day before. I think I finally got to sleep after Fiks came to bed, so that was after midnight. I got up with my alarms and had some breakfast before making lunch and getting dressed to go to work. When it was time I headed down the mountain.

I got to work a little before time, so I sent out a few texts and then I got into my work shoes and went inside. We had a RVT there to teach us this week. I think it was more teach certain people and ignore others, because I was fully ignored by her today. They day was difficult, being short staffed and working with V. I do have to admit she’s done better the past week, which means the one other day that she’s worked. I did my best, which is all that I can do. When it was my turn to go to lunch, surgery was just finishing, so I figured it’d be done when I got back from lunch. Nope. V has just getting to mopping when I was walking in and the manager grabbed her. So I figured I’d be nice and mop up surgery for her. She did a half assed job cleaning surgery with the vacuum, so I had to move everything around to clean the surgery suit properly. Did I get a thank you? Nope. Whatever.

I needed to sit down and so I asked my Manager if I could sit up front for a little while and help up there. She said yes and so I did that for about an hour or so before I was dragged back into helping in the back. We did a lot of x-rays in the afternoon, which I guess is my fault for asking for a quiet afternoon at lunch with a friend. We had a cancer patient at the end of the day and so that appointment took forever and I asked that Doctor if she was done with x-ray so I could shut it down. She said yes. Not 2 minutes after we have it fully shut off she comes out with the dog needing x-rays. At 5 fricking 30 we were doing x-rays. Didn’t get done cleaning the building until almost 6. I swung by CVS on my way home to pick up some Tylenol to restock our collection.

I went over and said hi to Mom and Poppa after I got home. We chatted for little bit and then I came home and turned on the oven and went and took a shower. Once I was clean I started to make dinner, which was really easy. Just a 2 pan meal that they supplied. It was like chicken fajitas without the tortillas. We watched Only Murders In The Building and then we watched YouTube until it was time for me to go to bed.

I slept better last night, but still not super great. I woke up with Fiks and kissed him goodbye and then went back to sleep. I slept through 2 of my alarms before getting up and ordering from Starbucks and getting dressed and making lunch all in a rush. I swung by and pick up my stuff from Starbucks and made my way down the mountain towards work. I felt like crap, but I still went. I got into my work shoes and walked in. I still was in pain, and I fought lightheadedness and nausea for most of the day. We had 6 planned surgeries and then an emergency exploratory and a blocked cat come in. So that took it up to 8 surgeries. I did the call backs, some rooming, and then I started making gown and surgery packs. It got really bad around lunch, so I asked if I could go home since L showed up and started taking over surgeries. I asked my Manager if it was okay if I went to the doctors, and she said it’d be okay if A said okay. She said yes, I looked pale and was breathing kind of hard.

I left work and swung by urgent care, and waited. I read my book for a while and then Kaiser called, and I was hoping it was someone calling with some answers. Nope, it was for a survey. I started answering and then a nurse called my name so I hung up to go back. I think that there scale is off, because t has me 10lbs heavier than the one at work. They asked me why I was there since I was just in on Monday and knew they couldn’t do anything for me. I asked for some anti nausea meds and pain medication. They made me do another urine sample to make sure they still weren’t missing anything (aka I wasn’t pregnant), then I got anti nausea meds but no pain meds because they would interact with my everyday meds. Which I think is BS because they’ve given me some before. I got my meds and came home.

I went over to my Sisters and had a meltdown with my Parents. They wanted me to go to the ER again, and I didn’t want to go. I just wanted to cry, lay down with an ice pack and rest. They let me do that. I went and watched some TV and rested, and started to feel better. I went back over after an hour and sat down and had a talk with them. We made a deal that if I got in super bad pain again I’d go to the ER. I had dinner with my Parents and Sister and then came home and for a lay down again.

I slept okay last night, I turned off my alarms and just slept. I remember Fiks’ alarm going off but I don’t remember him leaving. I texted him when I woke up, and it was one of the few time I didn’t give him his mumbles and grumbles. I moved to the living room and grabbed and ice pack and flopped on the sofa with that for a while and fell back to sleep. I woke up and went over to my Sister’s house to prove I was alive for a little while, and then I made my way back home and put on a movie and fell asleep to that too.

I just stayed home and would randomly walk over and check on my folks when I had the energy. I thought I slept through Poppa and my Sister leaving for church, so I went over to check on Mom. Everyone was still there and my Sister tried to get me to walk the dog. Mom told her I couldn’t do it so she did it while throwing a fit about it. I hung out with Mom until I started to not feel well and then I came home and flopped with an ice pack for a while. I ordered dinner for us (Habit burger, I blame MasterChef) and then we have gaming in a little bit.

I’m going to call it here.

~Just keep Swimming~