Welcome to week 40!

Hi. We played D&D last night, it was combat basically the whole time . It was fun minus the dying twice. Afterwards I went to bed and read my book for awhile and then fell a sleep. I woke up when Fiks came to bed and moved me (apparently I had Starfished) and then I was able to go back to sleep. Around 230-3 I started coughing, and not wanting to wake Fiks up since I couldn’t stop, I moved out to the sofa and grabbed a bottle of Gatorade and settled down for some sleep. I’d wake up randomly coughing. I woke up when Fiks came out of the bedroom and then I fell back to sleep until I got a phone call about some possible fraud activity on my one of my cards. It was just me shopping (thank God, that’s the last thing I need right now).

I got up and made cinnamon rolls and turned on the new episode of Great British Baking Show on Netflix while I waited for them to cook. Once they were done I put sugar on them and then gave on to Fiks who was playing Cyberpunk on his computer. I walked over to give some to my Sister and my Parents. My Sister was gone for the day and so it was just Mom and Poppa, and they were thankful for them. I came back home and ate mine while talking with a friend and then I started working on this.

Fiks went off to play Amtgard, and I started doing math homework/prep for working in the groups tomorrow and Tuesday. Oh my god my brain hurts. I’m taking a break from math and watching SVU. After a while I started on math again and got kinda confused. Poppa wasn’t next door anymore so I decided to take it over to my Brother’s house so we could work on it there. Then I waited for Fiks to come home, first he had to hit up Costco, got some booze for Feast of Athena (formerly known as Feast of Mars), and he got a drink and both of us churros before coming home. He picked me up and then we went over to my Brother’s for family dinner.

Fiks and I got there late, they had already started dinner, which was fine. There was potatoes, stuffing, honey carrots and ribs. So good. The ribs were wonderful, we even got to bring some home with us. After dinner Poppa and I started on working on my math stuff. I was a little confused at first but then I figured it out after a little while. Its just a different way of thinking that I have to get used to I guess. And I haven’t taken a math class in 6ish years, so I’m bound to be a little bit rusty.

After dinner and math we came home and took out the garbage and recycling. Mom asked me to come over and I went over and ended up walking the dog, because my Sister refused to. I don’t understand why she won’t walk him or take responsibility for him. I get that he can be a pain in the ass, but yeah, take responsibility for your pet. If she would just take care of him like he needed and not on her what she views as a schedule, he’d probably be better. Sigh.

And now I feel like I’m being a pain in the ass over the group time I’ve been assigned for class. Double sigh.

I slept really well last night. I didn’t wake up when Fiks came to bed, I slept until he got up and started getting dressed for work. After he kissed me goodbye I fell back to sleep and slept through my first alarm. I got up with my second and moved out to get my protein shake and then watched M*A*S*H until it was time for math class, or group considering there is 3 of us meeting Monday & Tuesdays from 9-11. We went over 1.3 and it only took us like a hour and a little bit. We seemed to work really well together, so that was nice to discover.

After class I went over to check on my Parents and Poppa was showing me the coyote family on the cameras at 100 when Mom fell down in the dining room, Poppa and I were right there but we weren’t quick enough to stop her from bonking her head on the table. She said she was fine so we got her up and into a chair and put on Great British Bake off for her, and I waddled my way back home to work on homework. After a while I went and checked on them and she had just started taking a nap, so I whispered to Poppa that I was going to the grocery store and came back home and got dressed and moved laundry, then took off down the mountain.

Here’s a tip for everyone. DON’T GO SHOPPINF WHEN YOU ARE HUNGRY! You end up buying stuff you don’t need but want because you’re hungry, like cupcakes. Delicious chocolate and caramel cupcakes. And chips and cookies.

I came home and made myself a sammich and then I had a chocolate cupcake. Yum. I started some music on Spotify and started working on my class work. And working on it, and working on it, and working on it. My sister called and asked for some help with Mom, so I went over and helped for an hour. I ended up catching her from falling again and decided we needed to call someone to send her to the hospital. The local fire department and paramedic unit showed up and took care of Mom. They gave her some IV fluids and she started perking up and cracking bad jokes with the firemen/women/paramedics. We got her loaded up in an ambulance eventually and then she went to the hospital with Poppa planning on meeting up with her at the hospital in 45 minutes.

Fiks jumped onto his computer and I jumped back onto mine to work on my math homework. I was going to make dinner, but after the stressful day and losing track of time we ended up ordering pizza, twists, and wings. I got back on my computer and worked on this and then Fiks started his Monday night gaming group. Dinner eventually showed up, and we got news that Mom was good enough to be discharged, so my Brother and Sister went down to pick up her and Poppa. Fiks finished his game and came and sat with me on the sofa and then my Sister pulled up with Mom, with my Brother and Poppa behind them. We got Mom unloaded and then we were walking her up the stairs when she full on passed out. She started snoring she was so far gone. So my Brother and I lowered her to the ground, Fiks got her a chair and we maneuvered her into the chair while my Sister dialed emergency services again and Poppa wasn’t really sure how to help. It was scary as shit. She came to in less than a minute, but that was a very long feeling minute. I ran up and grabbed a few blankets to cover her and I started rubbing my hands back and forth on the blankets to warm her up.

The same Firefighters/paramedic crew showed up and were really concerned about her, but they were very nice to her. A new ambulance team arrived and we got her loaded up and back on her way to the hospital. We came up with a battle plan and then went to our respective houses and Fiks and I watched some YouTube videos and wound down that way.

Needless to say I didn’t sleep the best last night. Fiks did okay I think, he woke up while I was dead to the world it felt like, because I woke up and he was gone. I got up and moved to the sofa after grabbing myself my protein shake and started working on stuff for class. I had a hard time focusing in group today, but I just met these people, and I didn’t want to hand over excuses. I made my way through class and I got a few updates from my Sister on my Mom along the way, which made me feel better.

I stayed home and took a nap, talked with Fiks and then I started working on my math homework and got nowhere. I was totally lost as to the subject which didn’t help me any. I’m going to have to get some help on it. Its about gerrymandering so that’s something I’ve never even heard the definition of. I’ve probably heard about it in the news, but I was struggling to figure out how it related to the topic at hand.

My Sister and Poppa went down and visited Mom for a while, she was still in the ER but she had a room. My Sister found a TV for her and she was happy. I got to talk to her when my Sister called me, so that was nice. She sounded good, just tired. But they wanted to run a few more tests, and so they were going to keep her much to Mom’s dismay.

I also started my group insomnia CBTi class. That was very informative. I did excactly everything wrong that night, contrary to what the instructor said was good for sleeping. I had wine, I ate a heavy meal (we got Olive Garden for dinner), we watched the last episode of Only Murders in the Building. We watched some YouTube videos afterwards and then I went to bed.

Hey guys, I’m stopping it here. Its been a very hard week and I didn’t keep up with writing everything down and now its Sunday and I need to focus on my homework. I’ll try to do better next week.

~Just keep swimming~