Hi, and welcome to week 41!

I didn’t sleep really well last night. I did the usual trick, took a shower, ate a cookie, watched a movie that usually puts me to sleep. None of it worked. It was just so flipping hot last night, and I was frustrated. Math wasn’t going well along with other things. I looked into joining a kick boxing gym, but I don’t have the funds right now to join. Maybe next paycheck. I finally fell asleep around 3 then woke up every 30 minutes until I gave up and got out of bed at 9. I did my Sunday morning tradition of cinnamon rolls. I watched some M*A*S*H and some Lucifer for a while as I woke up and read my book.

I talked with Fiks for a little bit while he was having breakfast and before he broke down camp down at Feast of Athena. Him being gone was one of the reason I don’t think I slept well the past few nights. I also had a few hard days at work, Friday being really hard. I called up Fiks crying on my lunch because of a really hard euthanasia. I came home after closing and went and checked on my parents and they were really nice and tried to have me be social, but I just wanted to be alone and go to sleep early after watching junk TV.

Anyway, back to today. I started working on my math homework, being distracted by Lucifer and music, so I for some reason decided to put on Sing 2. You know, something distracting with songs seems totally something I should do to help me focus on my math.

I did manage to get most of my math done. I kept getting tripped up on percentages, which was very frustrating. I decided to pause and wait to get some help from Poppa later. I watched the movie and of course Fiks came home during ‘I still haven’t found what I’m looking for’, one of my favorite bits. I paused and ran down to the garage and brought him up and we finished the movie together. Then we watched some YouTube and Fiks fell asleep, so I put it on M*A*S*H and dozed to that. I tried waking him up so he could go take the shower he talked about but he said it was too warm and fell back to sleep. When it was time I went and got dressed into a dress and then we went over to my Brother’s for dinner.

I forgot to take a picture but it was good. Smashed potatoes, butternut squash, broccoli and a new cut of beef that I don’t remember what its called but its from the back leg of the cow, so its tender and not very much fat on it. It was yummy. We watched the 49ers game at his house for a while before Mom wanted to come home, so Fiks and I loaded her up into the car around half way through the 2nd quarter and got them home. Poppa said he’d help me with my math, so I grabbed my laptop, note book and calculator and headed over there. We worked on it for 30 minutes and he helped me figure out what I was doing wrong.

I came home and started watching the game. The Cowboys are being DESTROYED by the 49ers. The score is so ridiculous as I type this. 42 49ers, 10 Cowboys.

I’ve been a 49ers girl all my life, so no, I’m not just jumping on the hype train. Poppa would wake us up/keep us up late to watch the 49ers game when we were in England and call us sick into school the next day. I went to Jerry Rice’s retirement game for my birthday. I’ve met Joe Montana. I even had him try to buy my horse out from under me and I said no (much to the chagrin of my Mom, trainer at the time, Brother, and Poppa. 16 year old girl in love with her horse who was a great partner and winning machine.) So 😛 . After the game Fiks played Breath of the Wild on the TV and I started scrolling through Instagram. I lost track of time so I went to bed a little late, and read my book before falling sleep.

I slept fairly well last night, just waking up a couple times. I didn’t get up with my alarms so I was almost late to class. I ended up being the first one there. We waited for another student to show, but they never did. We were working on problems for a hour and a half. We had a problem to do with taxes. I admit, I’m not great at them, but I thought I understood what the question was asking for, so I did it the way I read it. Well, the other two did it differently than me, but they got the same answer. I was kind of bullied into backing down about my answer, so I stopped arguing and just let them put their answer in. My answer and way of doing it ended up being the correct one. Kind of made my morning.

After class I went over and said hi to Mom, Poppa and my Sister for the morning. I told them what happened in class and I got some high 5’s from it. Afterwards I made my way home and I watched some TV until Fiks got up and sat on the sofa next to me while waking up. After M*A*S*H was done we unloaded the car, got dressed out of PJ’s and into normal clothes and headed to the grocery store. The grocery store parking lot was packed, the store didn’t seem to bad. We went and got our things, and then we ordered a late lunch from Panda Express and came home.

We watched YouTube while we ate, and after a while I started working on homework. The subject is taxes… yay. Needless to say I’m having problems. I called Poppa to see if he was next door, because there was talk of him going to 100 this morning. He was at 100 so I decided to save what I’ve done and wait for him to come back. I moved laundry and then I went over and said hi to Mom and my Sister, who were watching Pride and Prejudice.

After a while Poppa came home and I went over and did math with him. He was over thinking a lot of the problems and taking a long time to go over them. The taxes one got him pretty stumped too, so I was glad to know I wasn’t the only one having problems with it. After my laptop nearly died I came home and hooked it back up to the charger and watched some TV. Fiks was gaming with his other group, so I made some quick dinner from a box meal we had left to cook. When it was time I went to bed and meditated for a little bit before reading my book then passing out for the night.

I slept fairly well last night. I woke up with Fiks still in bed next to me, and I asked him if he was going into work and he said he wasn’t feeling good, so he didn’t know. Okay, I get that feeling. I got up and grabbed my protein shake for breakfast and jumped on for math class. It seemed to go okay. I was so focused on the taxes stuff that I didn’t prep for the chapters were were going over today, so that really sucked. Not letting that happen again. I went to my instructors office hours after we were done with our group in order to get help with the taxes thing. She helped me figure out what I was doing wrong and what the program was doing wrong, so I didn’t feel nearly as dumb since we both got the answer wrong. She told me to mark the question and then she’d give me credit for it since the program was being difficult. I worked on my math for a little bit longer before doing a movie with my Cousin. Today we watched Cruella.

Poppa called me a little while after we started the movie saying he needed to go to 100 today and if I’d check in on Mom. I said yes, but I was watching a movie with my Cousin, did she want me to come over and watch it there with her. She said no, just come over when it was done. My Cousin and I chatted all throughout the movie, so that was nice. Afterwards I grabbed my laptop and went over to Mom and put on some Downton Abby and watched that with her while doing math. At least I was done with the taxes chapter, thank God, and was on percentages.

I stayed with Mom for a couple hours and then I came home. I hung out on the sofa and wanted to go get more fish for the tank since we’d lost one last week, bringing the total to 3. We needed a yellow guy and two pink barbed guys for everyone to be happy. Even though I still want a beta fish because they are very pretty, I don’t have the best of luck with them. After a while I talked Fiks into going and getting fish, so we went down to PetSmart and got some fish and Halloween decorations for the tank (Nightmare Before Christmas), some Habit Burger, and then we came home and watched Ashoka.

After Ashoka we watched some YouTube and then I realized that I was missing my insomnia help class. It just totally didn’t register that that was today. I feel very bad about missing it. Fiks went and jumped onto his computer after some videos and I started watching Archer. I kept watching it until it was time for bed.

Oh! For those who watched and enjoyed Only Murders in the Building, the music is on Spotify if you want to hear it.

I didn’t sleep well last night. Woke up a lot and tossed and turned. Then I got a text from my manager asking me to come in early and open up front. I woke up and hurried my way down the mountain to work. I got there and started working on opening reception and then the person who was meant to open showed up. So I helped her do the rest of the opening duties and then I walked back to treatment and started doing opening duties back there.

People started coming and checking in and then we started rooming. I was just a rooming machine it felt like, like I was doing all of it. At one point I was making up some prescriptions and A came over and said she wanted to talk to me. I though oh shit, what have I done wrong now. She waited for everyone to walk by so we were alone, so I thought I was in deep shit since she wanted everyone else gone. She then said I was doing really good lately and a couple other compliments that I can’t remember before walking away. I was stunned. The rest of the day kind of went by in a blur. We had a euthanasia at the end of the day and then whlie we were taking care of the body it made a noise. M and I looked at each other and ran and got the doctor. She said the dog was gone, it was probably just its last moan and releasing the air in its lungs. Creepy as fuck, I’ve never had that happen before.

I came home after we were done cleaning, dropped off my bag and my pens and walked over to my Sisters to say hi to my Parents. They were doing good. Mom’s doctors appointments went well, so that was good to hear. I told them about A giving me a compliment and they were as stunned as I was. I came back home and took a shower and flopped on the sofa watching Archer and waiting for Fiks to come home. He didn’t get home until late, but we watched some YouTube together before I went to bed.

I slept horrible last night. I woke up at 3 and was just wide awake. I stayed in bed tossing and turning and finally gave up around 5 and moved to the sofa. I put on Ratatouille and fell asleep half way through that. Fiks came out with my Gucci horse and kissed me goodbye. I asked him to give me my phone since it had my alarms on it and I was working a different shift today, so he went and grabbed that before putting on shoes and leaving for work. I put on M*A*S*H and slept a little longer before my alarms went off and I got dressed for work. I managed to pack a lunch before leaving.

I walked into work after changing and putting on a mask and grabbing my water bottles. I saw G and she said I was assisting on the dental today and showed me how to set up the dental table. I was super excited. I haven’t done one with A before, and its been over a year since I was able to do one. And the person who I did it with made me feel like and idiot and was a bully towards me. Anyway, I was excited and anxious. We got the table set up and I took a photo of everything A needs for a dental procedure.

The morning went by without a hitch, so that was nice. I was sent to lunch after G so that I could help on the dental procedure. They worked on the foxtail search while I was at lunch. I came back and helped get the dog sedated and intubated and then G explained what she was doing and let me see how she did the charting and then after a little bit helped me take the vitals. It was exciting for me. While we were doing the dental the patient had a ear hematoma that needed drained and and a lump that needed removing. So it wasn’t the best or easiest surgery to do, but I was glad to do it.

Recovering was the most scary part for me. He was having a little bit of a rough time waking up, and he wasn’t swallowing. You need the patient to swallow 2 or 3 times before you can pull the tube out. G and I were talking to him and counting the swallows, and he gave us 2 and so we pulled the tube. The rest of his recovery went fairly smooth. He was a talker, though he did have some teeth pulled and the ear hematoma and the skin tagged removed. I can hardly blame the guy.

The rest of the afternoon was good. I discharged the patient and that went well, and I helped start closing duties and when it was time I got to leave. I came home and told Mom and Poppa about my day and they were excited for me. That was nice. I went to the basement and pulled out the extension cord and the light timer and then I went and got my Halloween lights out for the first time and hung them up. I don’t think they look half bad. I just need some pumpkins and some (fake) spiderwebs and I’ll be happy.

I then took a shower and got changed and started working on dinner. I was going to do the chicken dish, I chopped the broccoli and put the oil in the pans and started warming them up. Then I opened the chicken and boy, did it smell bad. So I threw it away and started the steak dish. That was fine. Turned out really good even though I did mess up at the end by putting the butter and cheese into the potatoes instead of on top of the steak. Whoops. Fiks came home while I was cooking and jumped onto his computer while I watched some more Archer. The steaks turned out really good.

When it was time I went to bed.

I slept better last night than I did the night before. I think that it was because I was bloody exhausted. I woke up when Fiks came to bed and I then I fell back to sleep. I woke up begrudgingly with my alarms and moved to the sofa after grabbing my breakfast. I watched some M*A*S*H before getting up and getting dressed and making my lunch so I could go down the hill and get to work.

Today was surgery day, so it was a little hectic this morning but not too bad. We were short handed today, so it seemed more hetic than normal. And no one wanted to close with me today, which sucked. I made a lot of surgery packs and gown packs at lunch before it was my turn to go to lunch. I was exhausted and hungry by the time my lunch came around. When I came back it surgery was still going on. When appointment time came around the shit hit the fan. There weren’t enough of us to do everything. We needed to clean surgery, room, do tech appointments, and help with regular appointments, do packs and laundry.

I went and cleaned surgery during a lull. I spent more time detangling the vacuum cleaner cord then I did vacuuming surgery. There was a file waiting to be roomed, and 3 people standing around, I decided to keep cleaning surgery so I made up the mop bucket and went and moped surgery. When I came out of surgery and saw the folder still up I was fucking pissed. Two people were still standing around doing nothing and there were open rooms. So after I was done with the mop bucket I went and roomed the person and apologized for the wait. Thankfully there were nice about it.

We were done with discharging patients and rooming them, so C started vacuuming and I started moping. I told C she could just book it vacuuming wise. I did the few things that popped up and C did what she needed to do and asked if she could leave. I was almost done so I said yes. I finished moping and put down the chairs and then I punched out and came home. I dropped off my bags and my pens and went over and said hi to everyone at my Sisters house. I hung out for a little bit and then I came home and took a shower.

I got cleaned up and then I watched some Archer and waited to hear from Fiks. He sent me a text that he was on his way home, so I asked him to pick up some chicken on the way so we could cook the other dish. He came home with some chicken and pumpkin beer, so we started cooking. The dish was delicious. Red pepper pesto sauce with chicken and broccoli. I forgot to take a photo because I was hungry and Fiks finished before I did. We watched Ahsoka and then some YouTube before I went to bed.

I woke up and struggled to stay awake, thankfully today was only a half day so I didn’t have to pack a lunch. On my way to work I got a request from L (I don’t know how she got my number) for Starbucks. I ignored her until I got to work since I was driving and then walked in and said if she wanted something we could order it. I don’t know what she’d been doing since 730, but it wasn’t wrapping any packs or stocking the drawers or making up the prescriptions. So I had a lot of work to do.

I was making up prescriptions when she walked by with a file and handed it to me, thankfully (or smart on her side) she had a folder in her hands and started rooming one of the doctors. I roomed the other one. The day wasn’t too bad, T was in a mood for running the front solo. I don’t understand why she didn’t want F to come in even for a few hours to help, but she didn’t. I caught L on her phone numerous times outside, which just pissed me off. And while I was making packs she was decorating the office.

We kept rooming and one of the doctors fell behind, so the other doctor took over her appointment she feel behind on, then fell behind on her own appointments. Then we had problems with the x-ray that no one knew how to fix, so I had to trouble shoot it. I was working on it for 20 minutes, trying to solve the problem. I copied, and resent, I did other things, I went through all the buttons to check to make sure we hadn’t done some thing wrong and lost the image. And then it dawned on me to try to reset the page, and that solved the problem. Man, did I feel dumb. That should have been the first thing I tried. Well, now I know for next time.

After I got the images burned onto a CD and the images sent to an emergency vet clinic, I was asked to send all the records over to the emergency clinic. Because the Doctor went to T and she flipped out on the Doctor, and it wasn’t something that hard. 3 clicks and some typing and it was done. Then we just had to wait for the last appointment of the day to finish (which took for freaking ever!) and then we cleaned up. I asked A if she needed me to do anything else, and she said no, so I punched out and headed to the station to say hi to Fiks.

It was a new person at the counter so she didn’t know who I was, plus she was busy. I sent Fiks a text I was there, and he came out a few minutes later because a driver with a missorted package showed up. I followed him back to the back on he was back in with the package and we chatted for a few minutes. We didn’t have long because he had his conference call in like 2 minutes. I left and came home.

I went and said hi to Mom and Poppa and Mom was PTFO. Poppa and I had a whisper conversation as not to wake her. Then he asked me to take Lumi for a walk, so I did. He was a good boy for me. I took him back and then came home and got changed, had some lunch and turned on Archer. I passed out unintentionally and woke up when Poppa came and knocked on my door, asking me to keep Mom company while he went to church. I said sure and then went over after putting some shoes on.

We finished what she was watching and then watched Great British Baking Show’s new episode. That was fun.

After that we watched some Yellowstone and I made dip. Poppa came home right before I started mixing, and he helped me taste test. Fiks came home soon after and then we watched some YouTube while waiting for pizza. And waiting. And waiting. I’m sure it seemed like forever because I was hungry. After we were done watching YouTube we went to bed.

I’m going to leave it here for this week

~Just keep swimming~