Hi, and welcome to week 52!

Today is Christmas Eve. Sorry for my lack of blog last week. I came down with pneumonia and just slept and watched TV the week away. I did some coloring too. Maybe I’ll show them to you. I got the book from my one, my only, Partner In Crime, D. It’s A Court of Thorns and Roses coloring book. I’ve really enjoyed it.

Anyway, I woke up when Fiks left for work and I moved to the sofa and drank my shake and took my steroids and antibiotics and just hung out at home until it was time for me to go down the mountain and get my eyebrows done. After that I went to 100 to pick up my parents and Fiks met me over there. I found him in Guccis barn a few times, I’ll discover what he was up to later.

We loaded up presents and Mom into Fiks’ car and then I took Poppa and Lumi in the truck and up to my Sister’s house we went. After we got Mom, Poppa, and Lumi settled at my Sister’s Fiks and I came home. Fiks brought in his presents from my parents, I can’t wait for him to open them. I came home and had some lunch and watched How I Met Your Mother most of the day. Fiks was on the phone with his boss for a while, because his bosses are dumb. That’s all I say.

My Sister asked if I had any Benadryl so I took some over for Mom, put Lumi in a room and then I made my way home after helping Poppa prep the BBQ for dinner. My Brother and his wife and my niece came over and we started playing games. We did sausages for dinner and watched a Nutcracker movie on Disney+. I was still wearing a mask because I didn’t want to get anyone else sick.

After dinner Fiks and I came home and just hung out. Because tomorrow is a holiday we don’t get our trash and recycling picked up tomorrow, so we’ll work on it then I guess. He’s been playing a lot of Baulders gate III lately with his friends. He did that and I read my book I got from my Sister and then when it was time I went to bed.

I didn’t sleep great last night, a lot of tossing and turning. I finally gave up around 845 and got up and woke Fiks up in the process. I didn’t mean to, but I kissed him and told him Happy Christmas and then we got up and headed to the kitchen. Fiks started to make tea, and I started the oven for cinnamon rolls. We emptied the dishwasher and put stuff away while waiting for our appliances to get to temperature and then we did a few presents.

Fiks gave me mine first, a bracelet with some bamboo in it for good luck, and he managed to add some Gucci hair, hay, and some dirt from his stall into a container on the other side. Then he gave me a necklace with some more Gucci hair in it. I was almost tearing up, I was speechless so I just kissed him and told him thank you. Then I got his stocking and gave him his presents. I got him a pair of socks that have “I’m gaming, do not disturb” written on them. Great gift for my guy, right? Wrong! They sent 2 different size socks! One fit normally and the other barely made it over his ankle. So pissed. But he did enjoy his tea infusers and his owl bear I gave him.

Mom called me and we spoke for a while, deciding that I was going to go down to 100 to pick them up, and then I’d bring them up here and then we’d all go over to my Brother’s for dinner. I watched How I Met Your Mother until it was time for me to go and get dressed, and Fiks let me borrow his car to go and pick them up. I threw $20 of gas in the tank for him and then I picked up my parents after loading up their presents and taking the dog for a walk before we left. There wasn’t a lot of traffic on the way home, so we made good time. We got Mom and Poppa up stairs into my Sister’s house before I came home and parked Fiks’ car. I threw presents in the bag and then Fiks went and got dressed into jeans and out of sweats and mismatched socks.

We went over and did some more presents, and we got a new fish tank and some fish accessories for new said tank, I helped Mom open her presents. Fiks and I got them a new Roku that they can talk into, because that’s what they did at my Sister’s house and they really enjoy that feature. We’ll set it up one day. My Sister put on the newest How The Grinch Stole Christmas, and I started nodding off, so I said that I needed a nap. Fiks and I came home and I rested, trying to nap and failing, but the rest recharged me, so that was good.

When it was time Fiks and I went over to my Brother’s house and the Roast Beef was already done, like a hour and a half early. Fiks and I jumped on making our sage and honey butter biscuits and then we plated and started eating dinner. Roast beef, Yorkshire puddings, gravy, honey carrots, our biscuits, some peppers and mushrooms for those who enjoy eating rubber bands.

We ate dinner and then we opened presents before the 49ers game started. My Brother and his family got me new headphones for gaming, and 4 Disney cookbooks. I wasn’t expecting all 4. Oh, and Around The World In 80 Days staring David Tennant.

We watched the 49ers game, and boy, was that rough. Mom, Poppa, Sister, Fiks and Myself all left at half time, Mom was getting tired and wanted to go home and Fiks and I had chores we had to do. We took out the garbage and recycling and did some laundry before going and settling in the living room. I hooked up my new headphones to the computer to charge and watched some TV while Fiks was on the computer. My Sister taught Poppa how to text, so we were texting back and forth for a little while, and he kept me updated on the score. It was bad, 33-19.

I slept okay last night, well, a lot better than the night before, so that was nice. I don’t really remember Fiks leaving, but as I talked with him later in the day it was super early that he had to leave. I moved to the sofa and got my shake and turned on the TV and sent Fiks a text asking if he got his mumbles and grumbles. He told me he did, so that was good. I got a text from my Sister so we started texting, and then I dozed on the sofa for a little while longer. I woke up and I went over to my Sister’s and we chatted a little bit and I grabbed the books Poppa left behind yesterday and headed down to 100.

Poppa was helping Mom get up when I showed up. We got her eating breakfast and drinking her coffee, and we let her watch some TV. Poppa took Lumi for a walk and I went and helped Mom get dressed, then I got her loaded up into the car and followed them down the road. I turned in at Safeway and they went to the doctors office. I talked to Fiks while I was going around the grocery store, and I went to the doctors office to find Mom and Poppa and check in on them but I couldn’t find them.

I came home and unloaded the truck and put the garbage cans away. I talked with my Sister for a little while and then I tried calling Poppa on his cell phone. He picked up and said he’d call me back. I said okay and ate a sammich and some chips and watched TV. My Sister and myself took turns getting updates from Poppa, it might be time for another one in a few minutes here.

They ended up sending Mom and Poppa to emergency because her blood pressure was super low. They were waiting for over 8 hours before they decided to keep Mom to figure out what was going on with her blood pressure.

I slept okay last night. I think worrying about Mom and Poppa stressed me out. I got up and had my shake and then I watched some How I Met Your Mother before going and getting dressed for work. I packed my lunch and headed down the mountain to work. I got there just in time, so that was nice.

Work wasn’t bad, it was just a little bit busy, but that’s good, makes the day go by faster. A was nice to me, the other girls not so much. They were asking each other what they got for Christmas and just ignored me. I get being mad at me for missing last week, but it wasn’t on purpose. I could barely move around the house without needing a puff of my inhaler. I just kept my head down and did my job all day. L kept disappearing, again. Once I was done with work I went to the hospital and visited Mom for a little while. She was doing good. She got her dinner while I was there so I left after she was mostly done and came home.

I hopped into the shower and made myself some Mac n cheese for dinner. Then I just sat on the sofa and watched TV all night. When it was time I went to bed.

I slept well until 5, then I just dozed until my 630 alarm went off. I got my shake and a cookie and turned on TV and watched that until it was time to go get dressed and made myself lunch and grabbed my jacket and off to work I went.

I showed up and clocked in, sent out some test results and then I just felt lost for most of the day. Imposter syndrome hit me hard today. I kept trying to do my drug calculations and A kept dragging me away from them to do other things. Not that they weren’t important, but I really wanted to work on my calculations more.

We had a blocked male cat come in today, so I worked with A and one of the doctors on him for an hour or so. I tried so hard today, and I just feel like I was a walking fuck up. I told G and S that I really appreciated their help when it came to the calculations and other little things, because I did. I apologized for not being with it today. Omg, E was there today. She was asking for something to do and I told her to room a client. “I’m not on her service today” she responded. It was the only thing we needed help with at the time, the rest of us were busy doing stuff. I said that’s what we needed help with. A and I were working on a lion cut on a cat, had to put her away for the blocked cat, and then we had 3 surgeries today during lunch. She’s just so…. Frustrating.

After work I went to the hospital and visited Mom for about 45 minutes. She wanted to have a rest before dinner, so I gave her a hug and a kiss and made my way home. I took a shower and Fiks made his way home, and he was awesome and cooked dinner. I was so out of spoons at that point. I called and talked to Poppa and then we sat down and had dinner. Salmon and broccoli. Yum.

I slept pretty well last night. I had a hard time waking up this morning. I grabbed my shake and watched some TV until it was time to head into work. Then I got in my scrubs and made my lunch and headed down the mountain.

I got to work and discovered we were short staffed, so it was one person for each doctor, 2 for surgery and one for floating. Okay, way to start the day but I rolled with the punches. I did the call backs between rooming and helping my doctor out when needed. I took my break and tried to call Mom at the hospital, but she was busy with the doctor so I said I’d call back when she was at home. I went back in and just went back to work. I kept getting ditched when I came to cleaning surgery, which pissed me off. I went in after the last surgery to help S, and she ditched me and left me to clean surgery by myself. AGAIN. I was super pissed so I just stayed quiet and didn’t respond to the others outside a few short words.

Then the other girls started to complain about the schedule for next month. So and so has more surgery days than me, I don’t want to open or close on this day. just super great full for having a job that gives me hours and lets me go to school. Because I was quiet during everyone else’s bitching A and M thought I wasnt feeling well and said I didn’t look well and sent me home early. Great, another reason for the other girls to hate me. But I came home and grabbed my stuff from my sister’s house and vented about the day at her and got some advice back.

I know I’m skipping Saturday, but I’m going to give myself a day off. Thank you for putting up with me this year, and I’ll see you next year.

Remember

~Just keep swimming~