Hi everyone!

Man, I’ve missed doing this. But school had to come first, so sorry that I ditched you so early in the year but I had to. And even with that I might not even pass microbiology… been scraping by on the skin of my teeth for most of the quarter. I’ve been doing okay on the homework and assignments, but I totally bomb on the tests. Which sucks, because guess what’s most of my grade based on? Yup, exams! I am totally killing it in my women’s studies class though, which is awesome.

Work has had its ups and downs. I got designated a surgery day (Mondays, well, now its Wednesdays). G and S are still being little shits towards me, so that’s been great. They were super rude to me most of the time while I was in school. Can’t figure out why, outside maybe they were jealous of me going to school? I’ve been there a year longer than them, so I have seniority, maybe that made them mad at me? I don’t know. I guess that all the girls are getting into trouble, I’m not there enough to get in trouble (and I actually do my job without complaining). So yeah.

Mom and Poppa have been doing okay. If I don’t visit them I call and talk with them multiple times a day. I can tell how tired Mom is some days just in her voice. She’s still with it, just gets tired easier and needs to rest more. Poppa is doing his chores around the house, and they got some help to help take care of Mom a few days a week. We’ve been doing family dinner at their house because its easier for Mom to get around, and now my Sister who fell and broke her ankle in 2 places, so she’s in a storm trooper boot as she calls it. She did that about 3 weeks ago. She tripped and feel down her stairs, doing an octopus impression as she recalls it.

This week for me is finals week at school. I did my microbiology final today, and I do not feel confident at all about it. I never seem to study the correct things, or write the correct things down on my note card. But I showed up for the final I did my best, which is all I can do, right? I don’t think I’m going to pass Microbiology, but we’ll see.

I came home and flopped on the sofa for a while and watched some Bones while Fiks played Baulders Gate III some more. After he got up and took a shower we went out for dinner at The Laughing Monk in town. It wasn’t bad, but its wasn’t 100% great. My burger was over cooked, especially on the edges, but the orange dream martini I had helped make up for it. Fiks did a flight of beers and a bunch of tacos. Then we went and got some ice cream before hitting up another brewery so Fiks could get his crowers of beer. After that we came home and he jumped onto his computer and started playing games with his friends and I just hung out and relaxed on the sofa.

I slept okay for me last night. Not the best but not the worst, I woke up a few times. Always seemed to be when my audio book finished, and I hate those nights. I just kept replaying the same chapter over since I kept falling asleep to it. I got out of bed around 845 and grabbed my breakfast and turned on the TV to watch some Bones. I was dozing when my doctors office called me, asking if I could do an appointment today. Thankfully I had the day off to work on my Women’s Studies final, so I said I could do it this afternoon. After we had a box for my Sister delivered to us (I ran it over to her apartment), I started working on my final.

It took me a while to do it, and I’m not completely happy with it, but its done. Fiks eventually woke up and made himself breakfast (at like 1130) before hopping onto his computer to play Baulders Gate III some more. I took a break and watched some YouTube videos and then I put on Brooklyn 99 as I finished my final. I’m currently just chilling on the sofa waiting for my doctors appointment to start.

My appointment started late and my camera stopped working, but at least the appointment was productive. We are trying some antibiotics (which I’m waiting for a text to say its ready), a referral to a gastro specialist and a nutritionist. I have to start food journaling, so I ordered a journal off Amazon. I got a text that my meds were ready, so I got dressed after finishing the episode of Brooklyn 99 and then waited for Fiks to get to a pausing point. We were going to waddle down to Kaiser, but we opened the door and it was raining, so we decided to hop in the truck. We got my meds (XIFAXAN 550 MG TAB) and currently Fiks is making dinner. He’s really been into cooking the past few weeks, so I offer help, and then he turns me down, so I sit down while he cooks. I usually use this time for studying, but since I just finished my last exam this morning, no more studying.

Dinner was good – chicken with Brussel sprouts and butternut squash. Fiks and I both finished our portions, and then we talked about computers for a little while. He’d give me his old one and build himself a new one. I’m still working on a tablet for this, gaming and homework. Somedays its just chugging along. Like with gaming on Saturday nights it chugs depending on the map, or Google crashes so I have to reload anyway.

I didn’t sleep the greatest last night. It was another one of those nights that I needed constant noise to sleep, so I moved to the sofa and turned on Downton Abby. I slept until about 8, then I dozed on the sofa until my alarms went off. I got up and had my breakfast, took my antibiotic and then went and woke Fiks up around 9. He ordered us Starbucks once we got up and going, and then we took off for my TSA pre-check appointment.

The drive over wasn’t too bad, and we made it with time to spare, so that was nice. I was the first appointment after his break, so I think we were there 30 minutes total, which isn’t bad. When Fiks went for his TSA pre-check it took us a couple of hours. He was also a walk up, so that was probably part of it. After we were done we went and saw Ghostbusters: Frozen Empire.

Fiks got us D-Box seats (the ones that move in time with the movie). I really really enjoyed it. But I’ve loved Ghostbusters since I was little. I would watch the original two over and over again, even though when I was little they scared me in certain parts. (I’ve been trying to find a gif that would work for like 10 minutes, none of the links fu*king do! GRRRRR) Anyway, after the movie Fiks and I waddled around the mall, and we went into BoxLunch for a quick browse. Ended up with Fiks surprising me with a new bag and wallet for our trip to Disney World in May for our 5 year wedding anniversary.

After that I bought lunch at BJ’s Brewhouse for us, and then we made our way home. I swung by Kaiser to get the rest of my prescription that couldn’t be filled yesterday. Then we came home and I flopped on the sofa for a while watching Bones. I then did a few things around the house, watched another episode of Bones before getting hungry and making dinner, Annie’s White Cheddar Macaroni. My food journals also showed up today, so I started filling out the first entry to the best of my ability. I have to have a certain amount of days done before I meet with the Nutritionist in April.

I went and hopped and soaked in the tub for a while before heading to bed. And then I got hit with this huge wave of grief and guilt about Gucci. I burst out into tears and hugged my horse and tried to work through my feelings with a meditation. It didn’t help. I tried reading, didn’t help. I gave up and came and cried on Fiks and got a hug. I told him what was going on and he was very supportive. He talked me down enough that I was able to stop crying and go to sleep.

I slept okay last night. I remember a lot of tossing and turning and being very angry at my alarm when it started going off this morning. I got up, had my shake, and then I curled up on the sofa with… something on, I don’t remember what, until it was time to get up and dressed for work. I kissed Fiks goodbye, asked him to feed Toothless, and off I went to work.

I got there okay, with only a few minutes to spare. I switched into my work shoes and went inside and punched in, starting the call back list to check on patients from the past few days. Apparently I missed a lot over the past few days, lots of sympathy cards to sign. And one of the doctors got mad at everyone for not taking a patients weight down, I wasn’t there so it couldn’t have been me. But that kind of brought moral down in the back. We only had 2 surgeries today, so that was a nice change of pace. The day wasn’t horrible. I left at the end of my shift and it was positively pissing down rain, so I just booked it to the truck, hopped in, and headed home.

I got home and changed shoes in the garage and then I came upstairs and saw Fiks at his computer. I went over for a hug, and he gave me one and some kind words about grief and how last night was okay. I then made a sammich and logged that and my breakfast into my food journal before sitting down and watching Bones for a while. I eventually changed out of my scrubs and braved the rain and went and got the laundry started because I was out of scrubs. I heard that one of the horses I used to ride/take care of (Smoke) had to be put down, which put me into tears again. More hugs from Fiks were required.

I asked Fiks if he was hungry and he said he was getting there, so he’d start on dinner while I went to take care of the laundry. He made his chicken tacos again, which I love. So good. Then I turned on Dropout and put on Game Changer, and we were happily watching that when the power went out. It flashed on after a minute, then went back out. Fiks kept eating while I grabbed flashlights and then he opened the door and the whole street was black. He walked down to the main drag and it was out everywhere, while he was doing that I was checking on the fish and making sure they were okay. Then I called Mom and Poppa to make sure that they had power, which surprisingly they did. They offered up a room for us if we wanted to go down.

Fiks came back and we folded the laundry that was on the bed, and then he went to go read on the sofa, and I went to read in bed. I took my meds and started mediating and then the power came on. Made Fiks yelp, which made me smile, and then I got Toothless’ filter going with some help and then I went back to bed and read for a while before getting up and grabbing the laundry, which thankfully was warm and dry, and brought it in and went to sleep.

I slept okay last night. I woke up a few times but not for hours. Just for a few minutes at a time. I grumbled at my alarm as I went off and got up and had my breakfast, turned on the Simpsons, and dozed for a little while before going and getting dressed for work. I poured in my Gatorade and then I hopped into the truck and left for the day.

I got to work okay, changed into my work shoes and then headed inside. I punched in with a few minutes to spare. The day was, to be honest, boring. It was one doctor and tech appointments. People didn’t show for a couple of them, so I went and helped up front a couple of times, just to stay busy. After work I went and visited my Parents, who were doing good. Mom was having a snack and then Poppa came out and said hi. I put some ear medicine in Lumi’s ear, because he’s crying out when you touch it again. Hung out for a while and then I made my way home.

I came home and got changed after saying hi to Fiks, and then I turned on Bones and flopped and tried to doze to that for a while. I was unsuccessful. I helped my Sister take her groceries inside when she asked for help, and then I came home and ordered a Poke bowl for dinner, while Fiks ordered himself a pizza and wings. And then gaming started.

I’m going to leave it here for this week.

Its good to be back

~Just Keep Swimming~