Happy new year everyone. 
I don’t know about you, but I hope that this year goes better than last. 2016 was rough to say the least. I mean physically and emotionally. 

I had to drop out of school because I got ill and I needed to take care of that. I had to re learn how to take care of myself. I’m still struggling with that, figuring out what I need to do in order to help myself. Stuff like my coloring. 

I’ve had some falling out with people. Said stuff that I am sorry for and regret. But no matter what I do it’s not enough it seems. 

I know I need to make changes for the better, and have some tough steps and choices ahead of me. Like I want to start going to the gym again and working out. All that is stopping me is the fact that I feel very self conscious about myself. I’m out of shape and not the thinnest I’ve ever been. Some of that is from the medicines I’m on, part diet, and part lack of motivation. 

Anyway, I’m going to try and do my blog thing again. It used to help me before. 

So it was mine and Fiks anniversary over new years. 4 years together, I can’t believe it! We stayed in and watched The Thrilling Adventure Hour Special and drank champagne. I didn’t make it until midnight, because I was tired and had to get up for work today. 

We spent the evening  with friends playing card games. It was a nice change of pace and a good way to start off the year, I feel. Seeing old friends, cracking jokes, and just having a good time. Oh yeah,  we played The Oregon Trail card game and straight away I got Dysentery and died….

Bloody typical. 

Have a good night. 

Just keep swimming!