Hi Monday,

It is I, Equine Mistress of the Dark, and I have conquered you today! Well, I think I have at least. I hope that everyone else is having a good/conquering your Monday as well.

I’ve done good. I went to my doctor’s appointment and talked about what has been going on for the past two weeks. How my depression and anxiety has been worse and how I had dark, dark thoughts and desires. But I was good and I didn’t act on them, which my doctor pointed out in a sign of strength in me. Which was nice considering I feel so weak some days. We also talked about how I should look for a different job considering how much anxiety and how stressed out I get about my security job, but I don’t for my horse job. So I guess need to look into finding a new job.

I swung by my parents place on the way home and said hi to the one, and only monster paint (Gucci), who was waiting patiently for his lunch. Well, he was itching his face on part of his stall as he waited for me to get out of the truck to give him is lunch.  I hung out with my dad for a bit, my mom is still feeling ill and so I didn’t hang out for too long. I didn’t want to catch whatever she has. I know that’s mean, but I just don’t want to get sick. Not that my mom did. I kind of feel guilty for not doing anything with him today. Maybe I’ll swing by tomorrow after work and do something with him. For sure I will do something with him on Wednesday.

My boyfriend has had a weird day with work today, running all over and then he got a super long lunch, so we were able to hang out together for a while. We ate out respective lunches while watching @Midnight. During his long lunch I decided that I should be good and healthy and go to the gym. Try to get back in the habit of going.

So I went a step further and rode my bike to the gym. Go me! I did some weights for 20 minutes. I kind of did an all around work out, arms, legs, abs, and then another  20 minutes of cardio. I listened to music and moved between walking and jogging while watching Archer on one of the TV’s. I had kind of been watching Archer the whole time I had been working out.

So I’ve done a few things that are a step in the right direction, positive steps towards something new. Which is what I need.

Oh, I also finished my coloring of the cat.

I think he turned out cool. I went through my box of pencils 2 full times and then I got through 2 1/2 trays of colored pencils. Oh, the other night when my boyfriend and I went out he pointed out one coloring book he wanted to get me, and I saw a coloring book that I had been wanting, so I was bad and bought them both.

That’s right. I got the new Doctor Who Coloring Book and The Neil Gaiman coloring book. At the time I didn’t know that the Neil Gaiman book was a limited edition release, but now I do. So go me. It also got me reading one of Neil Gaiman’s books, The Graveyard Book. Its more of a young adult story but I’m still enjoying it. It’s a nice read.

I’m not really sure what else I am going to do tonight. My boyfriend is going to be working late, my parents are ill. So I guess I’ll just stay home and keep myself entertained somehow. I’ll probably color, make myself some dinner, and watch some TV or a movie.

Oh, last night we watched Mad Max: Fury Road. I actually enjoyed it. I wasn’t sure that I would. We were also doing laundry at the same time so we did little breaks to run and move the laundry around. Which was nice because it helped me keep my anxiety levels in check with the movie. The cinematography was great. And I really enjoyed the soundtrack. My boyfriend was saying how there is a version of the movie in black and white with just the soundtrack, no dialogue. I’d be interested in seeing that.

Okay, I think that’s it for today.

Just keep swimming!