Hey everyone!

I know that today is Monday and that I didn’t log any entries over the weekend, but I still have notes/a rough draft. I got kind of bored at work and so I wrote out what I wanted to say. So here goes.

Saturday

Since today is Saturday I worked my security job at the golf course. But this morning started out with a feeling of anxiety in my stomach and a mix of just not wanting to go into work. But I’m here at work so that’s a good thing I guess. I went to get the golf cart and I could tell that the other guard was back. It was filled with trash; dirty napkins, stained coffee cup and an empty box of cigarettes. So gross. And I stepped into the little booth that we have to work in and it stunk of bad fast food and more cigarettes. I had to have both of the windows open with the breeze going through to let it air out.

As I was greeting people and checking them in I saw one of my old lieutenants. I can’t remember the last time that I saw him; so it was nice to have a quick visit with him. He was a good lieutenant when I worked for the police department. He always welcomed me when I showed up as  volunteer for the PD. I need to start swinging by and saying hi so they don’t forget about me. Which I feel like they already have, but it does go each way.

So regarding work; I’m out of papers to log who’s coming and going. Plus the frustrating thing of people not stopping. I’m still asking people where they are going and everything I normally would do, minus writing it down.

But I spent most of my morning I spent listening to podcasts. The Thrilling Adventure Hour, Spontantionation, Jay and Silent Bob get old. Jay and Silent Bob was recorded at Comic-con so the audio was a little squiffy. I want to be bad and watch the Olympics on my kindle, specifically the equestrian competition (shock, I know), but I think its already over for the day and I have the DVR at home recording it hopefully.

Last night after my boyfriend got home we went and saw Gucci who was very happy to see us. I got him out and walked him around for 5-10 minutes and spoiled him with carrots. After Gucci we went and got some Chinese food for dinner. Beef and broccoli, yum!

We did try to watch the opening ceremony for the Olympics but neither of us were really into it. I had a really bad headache and he got lost in computer land. So I crawled into bed and read The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman. I’m enjoying it. I’m a little more than halfway through it.

Sunday

I didn’t really do much after work. I went home and hand something to eat while watching Whose Line Is It Anyway. They had Jeff Davis and Greg Proops on the episodes that we watched. We also worked at little bit on our Darkshore XX bid. Mostly on the budget and the costs, but it still progress on the bid, so yay for that. No, I’m not going to reveal the theme for it. Not yet at least. When we win the bid then I’ll reveal the theme. But that’s a few months away, after FOM I think.

So onto Sunday.

So I woke up and sunggled with my boyfriend, I didn’t want to wake up and get out of bed. But who could blame me? I did leave the bed eventually, reluctant to do so. Its okay though, he got up not long after me, so I didn’t miss out on to much snuggles. As I got ready for work he got ready for amtgard. He was going to another land where there is a tournament going on. I think he’s going to reeve. I’m not sure if he is planning on playing.

I just found out that one of the houses in the neighborhood was burgled yesterday after I got off duty. Part of me still feels guilty over it though. Apparently they got away with a big screen TV and a few other things. It makes me feel like I need to get out and drive my golf cart around more. Maybe that’s what I’ll do to break up my day, go for a little zoom around.

I tried to by naughty and watch the Olympics. But I can’t get them to play on my kindle even with the NBC Sports app. That’s what I get for wanting to watch the equestrian events at work. Yay for the DVR at home. But I did watch the French Gymnast, Samir Ait Said, the video where he breaks his leg half a dozen times.

Here it is.

So I broke up the day with a patrol in my little golf cart. I didn’t see anything interesting our out of place. I also didn’t get stuck on any hill’s this time around, yay! But I did avoid the big scary hill that I did get stuck on last time, so I’m sure that helped.

I’m thinking of coming out to my family on what is going on with me mentally. My boyfriend knows, my parents know, but I don’t know how much my siblings know. I’m not super close with them anymore, but I miss that and I need my family. I need them close and not to pull away because it really hurts my feelings and ruins me. I’m not one to fight to be the center of attention. I’m happy to sit in the corner and read a book or color.

So dinner was at my parents house last night and so I got to see Gucci. Yay. And we had skirt steak and pasta for dinner last night. It was amazing. But the whole family wasn’t there so I didn’t say anything about what is going on with me. I just want to do it once and get it over and done with. After dinner we sat down and watched Zootopia with my parents. They hadn’t seen it yet. They really enjoyed it.

Monday

So I woke up late this morning. Which is fine, because I had nothing to do today minus go and pick up my prescription from the doctors. So I went over to my parents house to see Gucci and then I went with my mom over to the doctors. She had to go close by to do some errands anyway, so it worked out for the best. After the doctors we swung by the doughnut store and got some doughnuts.

After that we came home and I did something good for myself. I went to the gym. I worked out for at least half an hour, which is better than me just sitting around and stuffing my face. I’m going to try and go every day. I’m not looking to work out for a super long time every day, but just to go and do something to be active. But it seems like a manageable goal. I still wish that I had a friend that lived close to be my work out buddy. Maybe I need to make a friend to be my workout buddy.

Okay. I think that I’m going to be done with that today. It was kind of a long entry even though it covered 3 days.

Just keep swimming!