Hi everyone.

How is your day going?

Mine is a little weird. I’ve kind of been in a funk all week and today isn’t any different. I woke up and did not want to leave the bed. The nice, warm, snuggly bed. I was bad and lied in bed as the little ball of anxiety grew in the pit of my stomach. I had stuff that I needed to do but for some reason I was super anxious about doing any of it.

I went into work and asked for some up coming time off. I decided that if I get the weekend off (long shot, not a lot of notice to work), that I am going to go to Westmarch Wars with my boyfriend. Its a couple of weekends away. I also asked for time off for Feast of Mars, which is at the end of September/beginning of October. I’m more excited about that one then Westmarch wars, but I want to go to both. Maybe the one this month will be a good little break from everything so that I can recharge.

I’m not sure. I need something to give before I break. And I feel like I am close to breaking. I don’t handle stress as well as I used to, and with everything that has been going on with work, my health, and having people pull away from me it has been really stressful on me. I try to do my best all the time, but it just doesn’t seem to be working. I went over to my parents house today after swinging by work and asking for the time off. I said hi to Gucci and fed him his lunch, and pulled off his fly sheet. He likes his fly sheet and won’t let my parents take it off him very often.

I decided to say no to the over night job. I don’t think it’ll be a good fit for me right now, even if I wasn’t looking for a new job. Speaking of new jobs, I found one for the local county that I am applying for. Its working with animals, which is kind of what I want to do. So as long as everything goes right, hopefully I’ll get an interview out of this.

I’ve been watching the Olympics on the DVR, I’ve been recording the horse competition. Shock, right? And then today at my parents house we watched some of the swimming. We watched men’s and women’s swimming, including seeing Michael Phelps in one of the heats. I don’t know if he won a medal for what we watched him swim, but he did come in first place.

I don’t really know what else to talk about today, so I’m just going to be done.

Just keep swimming!