I’m tired (week 4)

Hi from Sunday!

Work went fine this week. I was walking a dog last night and he dropped on me, that was scary as shit. Thankfully one of the techs was coming out so she helped me get him back inside. It wasn’t my fault, he has breathing problems and I was taking him for a walk where I had been told to take him for a walk. But I was terrified and upset for most of the night after that. Worried I’d get written up or lose my job. None of that happened though, so yay.

I came home and took a shower after work and Fiks glared at me when I tried to crawl into bed, so I turned M*A*S*H on in the living room and tried to sleep on the sofa. Wasn’t 10% successful on that. When I did finally go to sleep it felt like that’s when Fiks got up and came outside, so I woke up again. I was basically worthless today. All I could do was sleep on the sofa. I didn’t want to waste my day away sleeping, so I didn’t take my sleeping pills, when I ended up doing that anyway. I’m going to have to go to bed and let Fiks let me sleep until 1 or 2 this Sunday, see if that makes it any better.

I finished Big Bang Theory on Friday night, so I started over the new Doctor Who (Christopher Elcelston and Billy Piper), gotta start at the beginning.

I basically moved from how I was lying on the sofa and watching Doctor Who until about 4ish, when it was time to go over to my parents house. I got dressed and ready, and so did Fiks, though he had been a lot more productive than myself. We went and said hi to Gucci when we got to my parents house.

He was happy to get the carrot, but not so much the pets that come after the carrot. He even gave me a dirty look afterwards. But he doesn’t like the rain… even though he’s a moron sometimes and goes and stands out in it for hours. And it was cold so his arthritis was probably acting up in his knee.

We went inside and said hi to everyone; Mom, Poppa, Lumi and my Sister. Then we sat down and talked for a while during which the oven was warming up for the bread and the stew was stewing. But dinner was good, wish I took a photo of it like I usually try to do. I wasn’t able to eat all of mine. Once dinner was done we went and pasted Gucci, who did pretty good. Then we went back inside and hung out for a while before coming back home where we worked on the laundry and the garbage and recycling.

After we got home I got an email from work that I worked with someone who tested positive for COVID on Friday. Thankfully she wasn’t feeling well and basically isolated herself so we didn’t have too much exposure to her over 10 hours. But still, I felt really bad. Because I had kissed Fiks, I was around my parents and my sister, its just nerve wracking.

I worked on my math class once our chores were done. Math on the computer is hard, even after writing it down in a note book. I did not do well on the assessment test, which has me really nervous for the class. I don’t know when I’m going to be able to do the class with me working graves and then having to do homework for this class and my veterinary assisting. Its going to be interesting, that’s for sure. All I can do is try my best.

After feeling stupid for not being able to do math, I called it a night and went to bed. Fiks followed me shortly after. Even though he said he wasn’t tired he passed out well before I did. Its disgusting on how he can do that. I woke up once in the middle of the night, but I was able to get back to sleep so that was nice. I woke up with my alarm and had a bowl of cereal before my works ‘town hall’ meeting happened. It went fine, was a lot different then I expected it to be, so that was nice.

After the town hall meeting I went and worked on my math class again, and then class started. We just went over the syllabus today basically, and how to use ALEKS. I tried my best to pay attention in class, but I was so tired I started to nod off, so I had to putter to stay awake, which sucked. I hope that this isn’t a trend for the class, and if it is I might be screwed.

I tried some more math, and didn’t do too great, so I stopped and that was around the time Poppa dropped Lumi off after dog training so he could go to my sisters and not worry about the dog. So Lumi stayed with me and watched some Doctor Who after he settled down. I fell asleep so his barking woke me up when Poppa came up the stairs and knocked on the door, which was fine, I didn’t mean to fall asleep again. That was the theme for the day again, not meaning to fall asleep, but doing it anyway.

I feel totally useless today. I could barely function. I fucked up dinner. I didn’t empty the dishwasher or put the Christmas tree and ornaments like I wanted to do because I’m so bloody tired. I didn’t go see or take care of Gucci, which I should have done. I woke up at one point and saw what time it was and proceeded to make dinner, which I already stated I fucked up.

I might have had a meltdown over my math tonight. I talked with Fiks and then I watched some more Doctor Who. I’m trying to do it again. We’ll see if I improve since I gave myself a break. I did fine for a couple of problems, getting them right, then I got some wrong and I never recovered. :: heavy sigh :: This is going to be tough. I watched some more Doctor Who and then went to bed early because I was falling asleep on the sofa. I read my book for a while then passed out, then I tossed and turned most of the night, waking up at 430 and finally giving up and getting out of bed around 530.

I got myself dressed and ready for the day, made some toast and watched some M*A*S*H until it was time to leave to go the grocery store. The store went fine, nothing really happened. When I was done there I went over to my parents house and said hi to Gucci and gave him his breakfast which he was really happy about.

I went inside and Poppa was peddling on his bike, he ended up peddling 20 miles this morning. Lumi was a good boy for the most part this morning. I took in my cold and frozen stuff and the carrots, put the stuff away respectively and grabbed the dog food that I got for my parents because they had a flavor that Lumi liked and I didn’t know how much they had left. I grabbed the last raspberry tart cookie and turned on the TV and it had something really interesting on the Titanic, so Poppa and I watched that until Mom came down and then Poppa and I went out and pasted Gucci. He did good. Mom changed it onto the news while we were gone. I had to leave to make sure I was ready for class, so I said goodbye to everyone and made my way home.

I got home okay and brought in the garbage cans, which I didn’t bring in yesterday because I didn’t do anything but sleep it felt like. I put the cold and frozen groceries away and got ready for class, tried to do some problems before class started and listened to so music, and then class started. It was okay, I’m going to either have to write faster or print out the pages because she goes kinda fast. And she had to correct herself numerous times when it came to problems, which made me hesitate.

Once class was done I waited for it to turn 12 and watched Ant Man with my cousin. Well, fell asleep halfway through Ant Man. So I felt bad about that. Then I turned on Doctor Who and fell asleep again. I didn’t wake up until Fiks came home with his car from the dealership around 430, so I slept the afternoon away, again. Frustrating, might be something I have to get used to though.

While Fiks was getting cleaned up I cleaned up the kitchen and put the dishes in the dishwasher, the top is almost full already. Sheesh. We made dinner. Scallop with pasta and spinich.

We sat down and watched some YouTube videos, mostly Binging with Babbish, while we were eating dinner. After I was done with dinner I moved back up into the kitchen and started working on math homework. I can’t get past a certain point, so I’m taking a break right now. I’m currently listening to music (Hamilton Soundtrack) and working on this.

I took a break for a while and watched some Doctor Who to let my brain reset itself, and Fiks was playing CyberPunk 2077. Its been raining since I woke up this afternoon, and now as I work on this again at 148am it is positively pissing down. We even have a flash flood warning until almost 5am. But I went and took a shower just incase the power turns off before I can get to one before I go to bed. Then I finished the episode I was watching and came up into the kitchen to work on more math. I’ve been at it for a while now and my brain feels like it needs another break. But I’m done listening to Hamilton, I’m now listening to The Mandalorian soundtrack(s). I always told Fiks that its such beautiful music, so I’m glad I found it on Spotify.

That’s it for this week folks. I know I’m a little late publishing, but work, school, and insomnia have all been kicking my ass this week.

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